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Despair has an ugly face.

FEAR OF THE BLANK CANVAS.

I'll write more about my thoughts on this when I'm less tired..

More than Artists block.

I think I need to write actual diary entries before I can write & create an artistic diary..
..the only decision now is whether to write in one that I've had for years & written in occasionally or start a new one.. I think I'll use some new pages from a different book :)

Lines from my thoughts ?!

You keep wishing your life away, don't you know darling? You've gotta cherish each day..

                                     










     

One day I'll be happy..

..I'm not really sure what I want to say.. but I think I'll be happy when I'm living on my own, being the most independent I've ever been & being comfortable that way. As much as I know I'll have times when I feel lonely at least I'll be me, my real self with no unintentional input from others. Feeling slightly trapped at the moment. I can't really complain because life is the best it's been for a really long time.. a dysfunctional life really was had less than a few years ago. Life doesn't stop throwing things at you.. things that are tough to deal with, but at least it gets better sometimes. I'm not done yet, I'm not done desiring happiness & believing that one day I'll have it, it will be mine to cherish & hold onto with both hands; eight fingers & two thumbs :)

[ Look after every inch of yourself ]

I don't think I realised how sensitive my body can be.. it's quite scary. Trying to look after myself better but it's hard not to worry.. & worry only makes it worse. Possible hypochondriac, I'm not sure. You should never ignore something though. I'll see how I go :/

True Story.

Music is the only thing that caters for all the different sides of me.. music.. & sometimes food :)