FEAR OF THE BLANK CANVAS.

I'll write more about my thoughts on this when I'm less tired..

More than Artists block.

I think I need to write actual diary entries before I can write & create an artistic diary..
..the only decision now is whether to write in one that I've had for years & written in occasionally or start a new one.. I think I'll use some new pages from a different book :)

Lines from my thoughts ?!

You keep wishing your life away, don't you know darling? You've gotta cherish each day..

                                     










     

One day I'll be happy..

..I'm not really sure what I want to say.. but I think I'll be happy when I'm living on my own, being the most independent I've ever been & being comfortable that way. As much as I know I'll have times when I feel lonely at least I'll be me, my real self with no unintentional input from others. Feeling slightly trapped at the moment. I can't really complain because life is the best it's been for a really long time.. a dysfunctional life really was had less than a few years ago. Life doesn't stop throwing things at you.. things that are tough to deal with, but at least it gets better sometimes. I'm not done yet, I'm not done desiring happiness & believing that one day I'll have it, it will be mine to cherish & hold onto with both hands; eight fingers & two thumbs :)

[ Look after every inch of yourself ]

I don't think I realised how sensitive my body can be.. it's quite scary. Trying to look after myself better but it's hard not to worry.. & worry only makes it worse. Possible hypochondriac, I'm not sure. You should never ignore something though. I'll see how I go :/

True Story.

Music is the only thing that caters for all the different sides of me.. music.. & sometimes food :)

If the house on a rock in Newquay interested you...

Here's a like to an article about it ;

http://www.timesonline.co.uk/tol/news/uk/article861650.ece

& here's some more images! :)

One of my most favourite websites !

My Milk Toof

John Fucking Mayer

This song is me.

I FUCKING LOVE THIS ONE. Love LOVE everything about it <3

Explanation

Not finishing something for fear of it not turning out perfect.

Let's intermingle my experience in Newquay and my thoughts on spending more time at the beach.

NEWQUAY for the weekend

I spent Friday night to Monday morning in Newquay with 5 of my friends. First thing I can say about the place is that as soon as you drive into the area it gives off a vibe that makes you feel so laid back & relaxed.. it's the weirdest thing :) As time went on there I realised that I've never felt so welcomed, so soon, anywhere before. It's not just the people, the entire place has charm. I feel like if I were to take a random walk every day there I would find new places to eat at, relax, be on my own, be with people, absorb beautiful sights, it's like an adventure land.. kinda like the bike rides I took with friends when I was young :) I can't go without mentioning the sea water.. a clear blue/green with rhythmic waves to settle anyone's unwanted, unsettled emotions.. a healthy kind of escapism. Lastly.. one of my favourite things.. sitting in a sweet little cafe eating lovely food.. looking out at the sea, just awh. I would love to live here! However that's unrealistic right now... but I am not ruling it out for the future because no-one knows what the future holds, not really.

So beautiful. See the massive "rock" to the left? It's standing completely on it's own with a house on top of it & the only way to get to that house is to cross that bridge. This fascinated me, immensely.

To The Beach?!

Just a small thought I've had quite recently. I'd like to spend as much time as I possibly can at the beach, even if our close by beaches are nothing like those in Newquay. For some reason I believe I'd be healthier if I did this. I know that the air there is better for you & salt water helps heal. But of course I'd think of this as it's beginning to approach winter & when I'm starting uni. I'm still gunna try :)

I'd be interested to know what lifestyle choices people have made & stuck to, then how that went on to change that person's life for the better.

I only really like marshmallows when they're dipped in chocolate.

                                                 

Here's a link on how to make home made marshmallows ! :D

I wanted to see The Vaccines this year, however I am not able to... here's their new song from Radio 1 's live lounge

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w04-JT26Xo0